Tuesday, September 21, 2010

The Darker the Better??

So, I've been thinking a lot about age lately...getting older. ;)  I live in a college town, so it's not too hard to feel old.  I'm always (and I do mean always) looking for new creams and potions to minimize my wrinkles, discoloration, etc.  I read somewhere that as you start to hit your mid-30's, you should darken your eyeliner...wear more and even use it on your inner rims.  Well, I have been obsessed with doing this for at least 6 months know.  I think I'm addicted.  I've always been one of those people that must have eyeliner (it's the one thing that I never leave home without), but I've always worn it in a conservative way.  Now I just seem to pile it on.  Once you start, you just can't stop.  But I wonder, does it really help a person appear younger?  Doubt it!! 
What do you think?  What is that one thing that you do to make youself look younger?  Or do you even care?  What product will you not leave home without?  Let me know. :)

Oh...and I and never leave home without sunscreen on my face!!  That's a must too. :)

No that isn't my eye...wish it was!

Friday, September 17, 2010

It's Bothering Me

"It's bothering me, Momma."  I have been hearing this sentence from Nate more and more lately AND I love it!  I love that he is able to tell me that something bothers him.  He tells me if the tag of his shirt is scratching his skin, if his shoes are too small or not on just right, if his pull-up needs adjusting, if his nose is stuffy, if his brother isn't being too nice and on and on.  I have this need for my kids to be comfortable at all times (though it doesn't happen...this is the real world), so I like to know if there is something bothering them.  Zachary never ever EVER told me if his shoes were too small...ever.  And I was always worried that his foot was squished into a shoe that was way to small.  Nate, on the other hand, tells me they are bothering him and points to his toes.  Time for new shoes...so glad to know. 
So for now, I enjoy hearing him say, "It's bothering me, Momma."  Though one day I might be writing about how it drives me crazy! ;)

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Luke Michael

My sweet nephew Luke Michael turned 2 this month!  What a big boy he is. :)  He is smart, adorable, energetic, but my favorite trait is his humor.  I think he is too funny!  I love to see him dance, shake his finger at others, call for his "Mammy" and make animal noises.  I love his laugh, his smile, his hair and his adorable little "walk".  I wish you the best year ever little Lukey...2 year olds ROCK!!

Thanks :)

Thanks so much for your comments, emails and FB messages yesterday regarding my blog entry.  I wasn't even sure what I wrote made any sense; I just had a need to write down my thoughts.  Funny how you can be so looking forward to something that can also make you a bit sad.  This season has so many emotions for me, but I'm so happy to be here experiencing them.  Love you all :)

Tuesday, September 14, 2010


I love the Fall.  Ahhhh...the air is crisp (though Texas won't see that for a while), the sky is clear, and the colors are amazing.  Well, this part of Texas doesn't change much as far as color goes, but the isles of Hobby Lobby are filled with brilliant oranges, reds, and yellows.  I love these colors.  I love to have them all around me.  They are so comforting, peaceful and warm.  Yes, I wish I could enjoy them more in nature than in a store, but you take what you can get. ;)  Seriously though, I love the season.  I love seeing Pumpkins everywhere.  They make me smile...silly...yes, but so what...I like them. I can't wait for October to get here, so I can take the kids to see the pumpkins...ok, now I sound pathetic...but it's true. And then November comes around...ahhhhh...I love you November!  You gave me my first born!!  Thanks!  And what would life be without Thanksgiving.  I love it more than Christmas.  The food, smells, family...I just want to soak it all in.

As each day passes it is getting closer and I'm thrilled!  But this time of year is also a bit hard on me.  My mind is cloudy during these months.  It drifts back to thoughts of loss and deep sorrow.  It takes me to a place that I try to stay away from, but never do.  October was once the month that Randy and I thought our adventure into parenthood would begin.  Well, it did begin...but was quickly taken away.  I don't think I was able to breath again until Zachary was born a little more than a year later.  My soul still suffers. 
And then there is November...the month of thanks.  There was this one November that I couldn't even physically speak without a huge lump in my throat.  A November where I cried every morning on the way to work...A November where I blamed myself...A November when all I could think of was revenge...A November when it hurt to eat....A November when my sweet friend was killed by her ex-husband...leaving 2 beautiful children without their mommy.  That was a tough November.  I think about Lori everyday of my life...no exaggeration...she seems to be all around me.  She shows up in the music I listen to, the shows I watch, and I even occasionally see her hands...only she would understand that one!! 

But, I do love the Fall.  I love everything about it.  I am learning to remember the great experiences that I had with those I've lost instead of the pain associated with loosing them.  I've had a few major traumas in life and other bumps and bruises along the way.  BUT...if I've learned one thing from reading blogs and learning about other people from all over this country, it's that everyone has months that are tougher than others.  There are people out there suffering in ways that I could NEVER imagine.  People who would be unable to continue on without their faith in God.  This season I WILL count my blessing...I WILL give to others...I WILL be thankful for what I have...I WILL be thankful for each day, each color, each breath of crisp air...I WILL be positive. 

I have no idea where any of this came from, and I'm sure if I reread this post it would make little sense, not 'flow' properly and probably sound ridiculous...and I would probably delete it!  So, I guess I just won't reread it.  Hope my grammar and spelling are ok ;)
This is what happens when you don't blog for awhile...BTW, my mom was giving my a hard time again about not posting!  Sorry mom...I must have been huddled in a corner eating bowl after bowl of Fruit Loops, or maybe I had all the curtains closed so no one would see me watching those Jersey reality shows all day, or maybe I had nothing to say, OR maybe I was out shopping way too much while Nate was in school.  You can decide which you think it is. ;)

Friday, September 10, 2010

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Daddy! 

 I Love YOU!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

The Little Things...

You know...sometimes the little things can make ALL the difference!  Today, my "little thing" was a Tall Mocha Frap Light with an extra shot!  Yummy!  Is it silly to say that once I dropped Nate off at school this morning, all I could think about was that drink?  (Yes, it's silly.)  Cold, chocolaty, strong...hmmmmm.  Finally I was there, at Starbucks, in line and my mouth was watering.  Drink ordered...drink made...straw going in...lips making contact with the straw...ahhhhhh.  The little things often make such a BIG difference! :)